To the Wisdom keepers, healers, visionaries, & artists who aren't natural content creators

To the wisdom keepers, healers, space holders, visionaries and artists who aren’t natural content creators

I am sitting with my resistance to continue sharing myself online. The story is that I’m a healer- not a content creator- why must I have to create content for people to find me?

This feels like an energy drain from the real work I came here to do.

It feels hard to show up and make content when my heart isn’t in it.

And while I’ve been sitting with the resistance- I am understanding that even the content creation is a form of devotion to the deeper work and how much I know it can help others.

The willingness to show up even when I don’t want to, is me saying I care enough to do it anyway.

The practice of devotion isn’t always what we imagine it looks like.

It’s the same in romantic relationships or parenthood- it’s not about every day being sunshine and rainbows but about showing up even when its tough- and continuing to choose to devote your time and energy to what matters most.

Where your attention goes, energy flows.

I shared in a previous article that last year I was healing from a long period of burnout when I was called back to sit in ceremony with Grandmother Ayahuasca and how she showed me the root of the burnout that came from my ancestral line. But today I want to share how she showed me other areas that my energy was leaking.

She showed me that I was leaking energy fighting the opposing systems instead of just staying in my own lane and taking forward action.

This is a direct answer to the often heard serenity prayer:

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can,

And wisdom to know the difference.

I saw what the medicine meant very clearly, many of my posts were subtle attacks at the ways I felt other space holders(mainly clinical) were “doing it wrong” - instead of focusing on sharing the positive aspects of how I do things. I was reminded I’m not here to convince anyone that one way is better than another. Im here to connect with those already on my frequency- who already see the flaws in big pharma’s web within psychedelic work.

I had an underlying belief that I needed to attack the opposing force in order to be heard.

This message showed me how I was unconsciously doing this in many areas of my life. It was frustrating to see that I had been in attack mode all my life. I felt a lot of anger and grief knowing that this had been unconsciously shaping my reality for a long time-the ripple effect was huge- it wasn’t just about how I was showing up online, it had also shown up in my relationships. And even though it wasn’t my fault that the hyper vigilance had started in my mother’s womb, I knew it was my responsibility to heal it and rewrite this deeply ingrained pattern.

So one of the ways im doing that is by LEADING WITH DEVOTION instead of fighting against the way things work these days in terms of visibility and online platforms like instagram, youtube, and substack. My resistance is there, I don’t prefer it, but continuing to not put myself out there would be fighting the systems in place.

At the same time Im already celebrating the day that we as a collective begin to spend less time online and more time connecting with each other within community. I’m also honoring that as a Virgo stellium- one of the powers I possess is the ability to see where things can be better- so I won’t shame myself for when I’ve got a lil ‘tude here and there when I see the systems in place are slowing down humanity’s ability to embody the new paradigm that is available to us. There is that polarity work that I spoke about in a previous article, in action;)

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Hi, Im Shannon. Thank you for reading my substack article. This has been a long time coming. Last year I completed my memoir- a soulful, funny, emotional, and deeply esoteric recount of how my Catholic upbringing led me down a path of rebellion as a Sex Worker, which became the initiation that would eventually help me to find my souls calling as a Shamanic healer. I intricately weave the wisdom I have gained from the shamanic realms on Soul Contracts, Karma, dark entities, and Sacred Sexuality into how and why my story unfolded how it did. This substack is to serve my higher purpose- To dismantle the distortion of sacred sexuality and help humans find their way back into sacred union with self and other. I believe the path to this is through Transparency - which is the title to my memoir.

If you like my writing, stay tuned for more- as I will continue to share here as a joyful side project while I devote myself to fine tuning my memoir to self publish next year. I welcome all support, whether it be financial or advice from fellow writers or kind reflections from other human beings.

Please check out my recent podcast episode on the Decriminalize Nature channel on YouTube to learn more about my medicine work.